Will of chaos

Chapter 2029: Cap 2019: Transcendence…

I suddenly felt something, something I had never felt before, a sense of disconnection from my own Soul, an understanding of something so all-encompassing and profound that it overwhelmed my mind.

If I were a normal person, I would have panicked at that moment, but I didn’t. Even though my mind, Soul, and Body were inactive, my Will was one, resonating throughout my entire existence.

I pushed Hana away as my body sank into my shadows upon entering Tarzor. I didn’t know what was happening to me, but regardless of what it was, I focused all my attention on Lena, believing she could take care of me.

Entering Tarzor, I saw nothing, did nothing, felt nothing around me. My senses were all turning inward; it wasn’t my will, and yet it seemed that each of my senses was focusing more on myself.

I couldn’t find Lena, not in the situation I was in. I realized this, and so I immediately began to meditate. Since my senses were focusing inward, I might as well follow the current and see where it takes me.

Stopping my resistance, I tried to feel the changes within me. That’s when I realized several things, among which the center of all the change was the Energy Cycle, which was becoming totally abstract.

The Energy Cycle was merging with the Existential Spark. This led to a fundamental change; the Cycle changed its form from a current of energy into an atmosphere of energy with multiple currents.

It was like a river changing into an ocean. It was such a striking change that it shouldn’t even be considered, even though it was happening now.

The energy cycle had always been something ethereal within me, but now it was becoming different. It wasn’t just ethereal; it was forming a symbol as the core of the ever-expanding energy atmosphere. This symbol was a throne of dragon bones with the symbols of an eclipse dividing into countless paths that branched out infinitely.

This was the biggest change within me, but it wasn’t the only one. My body and soul were merging, but the core was my will.

It was no longer a physical matter; my body was as physical as it was ethereal. Vitality was no longer something that defined me, because I wasn’t alive and I wasn’t dead either. I could feel it being ripped from me; in fact, I was tearing it from myself as if trying to escape a prison.

Do I exist or not? This is the new reality. The Divine power and the power of Law within me, as well as the anomalous power, had transformed. What had previously synchronized in the same energy cycle had now branched out.

The core was Chaos, from Chaos seven roots extended: the Root of the Divine, the Root of Anomalous Creation, the Root of Anomalous Destruction, the Root of the Law of the Eclipse, the Root of Blood, the Universal Root, and the Root of Nature.

I could feel each of these roots forming and growing, I could feel the power transforming; I was the source not of energy, but rather the source of essence.

From the Root of the Divine, my wives and children connected.

From the Anomalous Roots of Creation and Destruction, my Divine Beasts and Heralds connected just below Samara.

From the Root of the Law of the Eclipse, Urd connected.

From the Root of Blood, it was my Saints and Heroes who connected just below the Twins.

From the root of the Universe, it was Tarzor who connected.

From the Root of Nature, it was Freya who connected.

From these roots arose an endless number of others that gave way to infinitely more; I could feel all of this, I was all of this.

My Will was no longer limited to myself; it flows through all these Roots. I could feel the connection with everyone, with some to a greater degree than others.

It was at this moment that I felt the change in the Star Path; what was once my Pantheon and King, the Divine, was now changing, becoming a manifestation of myself as it merged with Tarzor, two sides of the same coin, one being the physical state and the other the ethereal.

The Star Path became the Kingdom of Chaos, the origin of all transformations, the path to all directions. Both Tarzor and the Star Path were an extension of myself that grew, expanded, and evolved.

I felt the adoration of many during my transformation, the love of a few during the changes that were happening, and the Will of all those who awaited my return.

Everything happened so fast; my mind could no longer perceive each small, isolated thing. I could perceive everything at once and piece it all together into a single, complete picture. I felt far away, as if everything were very small, and it was precisely at this moment that she appeared.

“If you turn away now, you will end up like Life and Death, seeing everything and at the same time losing the little that was precious.” (Xerxes)

When she said that, it was as if I understood what was happening, but it wasn’t something I could control. The changes still happen without stopping, but I didn’t want to distance myself from the mundane, I didn’t want to see on the scale that other Entities see and lose sight of what was close to me.

I focused on my connections, I focused on my wives, I felt my will being embraced by them, my Will responded to my desire, a roar arose from deep within me, something primal that was trapped by Life and Death came to me, sinking into my interior.

I was no longer following the flow as before, I was swimming against the flow, I don’t need to adapt to anything, I don’t need to see more than anything, I will go where I want to go, I will see what I want to see.

Transcendence will adapt to me, each step I take against the flow will form part of my path, a place where I walk alone, with each step I mark my Will, with each step I proclaim who I am, and with each step my path forms itself to where I decided to arrive!

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When I opened my eyes, I perceived a strange point of view. There was shimmering dust all around me, and beside me stood a magnificent tree as tall as me. A single glance was enough to recognize this tree and thus understand the truth about the shimmering dust: it is Freya and the planets that compose Tarzor.

I looked at myself; I was ethereal, existing as a whole, and as soon as I wanted to return to being physical, it was relatively easy, as if I had always known how to do it.

Opening my eyes now in a physical body, I could feel how limited this body was, how little it could see and feel, yet it was comforting in a way.

Looking around, I realized I was at the top of the Star Palace. Kneeling before me were all my Heralds, Heroes, and Saints. Standing beside me were my wives, smiling at me. Behind me, I could feel my children gathered, their eyes shining, and before me, my Divine Beasts appeared, as if clearing a path for me.

“Finally, your Chaos flows into me, the Avatar of Chaos is born… I, Xerxes, will be your symbol before all creation!” (Xerxes)

Xerxes introduced himself, walking towards me. I understood what was happening; I brought them all here, it was instinctive. I clung to them so as not to stray from who I am.

When I opened my eyes, I could feel my Will flowing into them, transforming them from the inside out, and at the same time I could feel a special connection fundamentally changing. It was as if a dam that prevented the flow was destroyed. My Will flowed into Xerxes, who walked in front of me, kneeling and lowering his head.

I could feel something different in her, a sensation similar to what I feel with Tarzor, as if she were a shadow of mine, a part of me that could bring me closer or push me away. It was different from the connection I had with the others.

That’s when I saw three floating above, slightly bent towards me: Lena, Cortana, and Urd.

“Arise, Xerxes.” (me)

“May all hail the Entity of Chaos!” (Xerxes)

“May all Paths resonate with your Will!” (Xerxes)

“May your Will resonate through all paths!” (all)

“May your Will extend beyond the Stars!” (all)

“ZENOS! ZENOS! ZENOS!” (all)

Everyone seemed in a trance, but they weren’t being controlled; it was a trance that awakened their Wills, which resonated as one, incited by Xerxes. It was as if they were proclaiming my awakening both in Tarzor and within the Star Path.

I received everyone’s support, was embraced by their feelings and made whole by their presence. I was at peace in that brief moment.

All those I cared about were here, but they weren’t the only ones. This time I could feel the System watching me, just as I could feel the other Entities seeing me from afar, their Wills resonating beyond all the distance to where I was.

I wasn’t scared; in fact, my Will extended to their vision, and I smiled, presenting myself before their eyes with a fearless smile, proclaiming who I had become.